Divine patience – talks to self – is not doing nothing. So much doing – a little bit of being. Boredom. Action. Swift kick in the pants.
My kid and partner are home now. He has been so great – allowing me to “be” and heal and still loving me through it. I think we’ve both gone through a pattern shift or unprogramming of how we are to be with each other – sure financial stress comes up – but we are more confident now that we’ve got this.
I’ve been “out-of-office” since August 25, 2021.
Am I lazy? No.
Did I gain 30 pounds? Yes.
Is this a bad thing? No.
My body may look different on the outside – but I also have the clearest skin I’ve ever had. I was looking at photos from two and three years ago and I had major cystic acne on my jaw-line, chin and neck.
Should I exercise more? Yes.
But to feel good – and thereby “looking” good.
Inside-out.
Building strong bones – a healthy old lady body – for old lady times.
Like grandkids on knees. Planting flowers and fruit in the garden.
Belly laughing so hard I should throw my back out, but I don’t thanks to my HIIT and my yoga – my long walks and deep breaths.
Waiting is OK.
Attracting is OK.
Trusting. I had a thought today – or a realization that I am really able to trust myself – when I listen to my gut and intuition – I am safe and I know what to do.
I trust myself to wait – well – I will try my best.
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Lines in the sand.
Snakes on the shore.
Twisting and writhing.
Water snakes. Shark attacks.
Gifts and diversity of species.
where rivers are born 